It was originally a kind of single dog and a very cockroach. Suddenly someone at the level of a goddess/male god confessed to you, the kind of person you feel you are not worthy of her/him.
Asked the reason, it was in the cloud, and the two people didn’t know that kind of thing very well.
Don’t be a spare tire. Don’t like to be a father. Don’t borrow money. It’s not a jack. It’s not a big risk to just want to be with you.
What kind of feeling is this…
The boy is a senior in my senior year, and he is known by the club. He is the vice president. He is 182. I am a non-existent 163 Xiaobai. He looks like a normal figure and has no special skills. Because there is not much contact in the community, there has been no contact information. In the next semester, because of an event in the club, he and I were in a group and won first place, but they should not be very familiar with each other, so they were treated as mere game partners. Anyway, I was like this, and there was nothing in my heart. The sparks collide hahaha. At the end of my freshman year, I retired from the club. Later, I often ran into it at school. The school is very large and there are many thieves. The bustling people can always meet their eyes when they turn their heads. I don’t think both of them are too predestined. In the second semester of the sophomore year, when I met by chance, the senior found me in the community group and added me. (Thinking about it now, I admire his memory) Then I kept chatting with me. I didn’t feel much about him, and even thought he was annoying in the early stage, so I kept replying perfunctorily. During the period, he gradually learned that he played very well in basketball, and he had a thousand fans on Hupu. And the writing is very good, and as an engineering student, the writing style is also very good. I often do some volunteer activities. It’s a big deal for me. The attitude towards him gradually changed. After talking for three or four months, it’s September. I was promoted to junior year, and he was promoted to senior year. Because I am a junior college, I am preparing for a college upgrade. He is an undergraduate and went to the army in his senior year. At this time, I clearly realized his favor for me. Recruits can’t always bring mobile phones, but as soon as they get a mobile phone, they will send me messages and tell me some trivial things in the army. He said that in the army, except for his parents, he only talked to me. In March of the following year, my family had an accident and my father passed away in a car accident. At this time, there is still more than a month before my college promotion exam. He is very anxious and sends a lot of news to me every day, but it is not just talking, but making me feel very warm and firm. It is also a matter of this time to have a good impression of him. I was very emotionally unstable during the first or two months of preparation for the exam. I still smiled and studied with my classmates during the day, but when I was endorsing by myself, I burst into tears when I saw something or thought of something. Also full of confusion about the undecided road ahead. I am an extremely pessimistic optimist, and I don’t want to let others expect me, because I am afraid that I will disappoint others. I told him not to have expectations of me preparing for the exam. I said I couldn’t pass the undergraduate exam. He said: Everything will be fine, not only will be fine. Will be great, explosive, invincible, I have always believed in you, and you have to believe what I say, I will say you can pass the exam. At the end of the exam day, I saw him sending me various blessings and expressions during the period, and I thought he was really cute. I have never had self-confidence, he gave me indirectly. After the exam, I thought that I couldn’t get to the shore, and I was very depressed. He has been encouraging me all the time. Later, the results were sent to him as soon as possible, and he happily sent a lot of emoticons to the screen. I said that everything can finally be on the right track according to my plan. He said he was so happy, the kind that exploded in place. When I kept suppressing my joy and making myself seem calm and sensible, there was a person who was happy about my business from the heart. The joy that he restrained, followed him a little bit, and finally exploded in my heart. The middle is omitted. I went to another school to study. He won many certificates in the army, including the first in physical performance. During the chat, there was no exception for one day. Say goodnight to each other every night, without a day break. He was discharged from the army in September last year, and the epidemic is not over yet. He said he wanted to come and play with me, but I refused to say that I could not go out of the school. Actually, I didn’t prepare to face him. After all, I haven’t seen him for two years. I am afraid that the relationship will develop into a relationship soon. On the one hand I envy the sweet love of others, on the other hand I am timid and afraid to face it. Own emotions. Maybe this is being single for a long time, and then facing love will bring fear. Then it’s now, and now I’m doing an internship. He has been in the army for two years and is now a senior at school. When I found a job and moved in, my luggage was heavy. He said he wanted to help, but I didn’t let it. As a result, I can’t move it, and I want to cry helplessly. Hahaha, is it a bit hypocritical and doesn’t want to bother my friends, but feels that I am very useless, and I can’t move my luggage. Finally, I borrowed a small cart from the guard and happily pushed it home haha. A sense of accomplishment is full.