I don’t know if it’s too late, because now I’m only in the experimental stage. Let me introduce my situation. In 1992, I went to the edge of the third, self-examination for undergraduate, adult college, never read high school, graduated from junior high school and studied for a year of technical secondary school, I don’t know the situation of secondary technical school, at least once when I was in technical secondary school, students fight every day Fighting is non-mainstream, like a place where gangsters live, and can’t learn anything at all, so I drop out of school. I was about 16 when I left school~ I was extremely confused. My childhood friends, mixed days in secondary school, or high school, I could only play games at home every day. My family looked down on me, and I was drifting away from my childhood playmates. As you know, information in that era was far less advanced than it is today. When I was bored, I turned on TV and saw that there were business management masters and entrepreneurial masters everywhere on TV. I really wanted to fight for it. Later… One job is a waiter, the second job is to distribute flyers, and the third job is to be a security guard. I pretend to increase social experience. Then I waited for work at home. Every time my aunt came to my house, I would ridicule me. Three years later, my childhood playmates went to college or went to work, and I was still lying at home. I learned from the pain and asked the family for money, applied for an adult college, and took the self-examination (the kind of living on campus). I thought I had finished studying hard. You can find a good job after completing your career, so I spend the whole day in the study room. I graduated smoothly after another four years. From serving dishes to so-called white-collar workers, I felt that this was the place where my dream started. I worked hard, but later… I was fired and the leaders looked down on me because I was not a full-time undergraduate. , Reason for dismissal: poor work ability. Of course, maybe I do have a problem. I started my job hunting journey and traveled all over Shenyang. I was scammed by insurance companies, investment companies, or training institutions, or: I’m sorry, as long as we are full-time, we finally found a satisfactory job. I thought this This is where the dream started again. I worked hard, and then scored twice and was fired again… This time it was really not my problem, because all the people who came to work here spent money. The purpose of recruiting me is To deal with the opening ceremony of a new factory area, one year of preparation, after the ceremony, unload the grinder and kill the donkey. (My parents divorced since I was a child, and I lived with my grandparents. The two elders brought me up together, leading to a cowardly personality and a peacemaker.) After losing my job, my grandfather died, and I was dumped by my girlfriend again… After the first seven days, aunt I said a few words, “It is gold, it will always shine, provided that you must be gold, are you?”. “Either you go to a restaurant and become a lobby manager! How experienced you are”! . “Just forget about studying this thing, you can’t compare with your brother, you can see how good your brother (that’s her son) is. Studying is not suitable for you.” I want to chat with my friends. Their chat content: better than cars, better houses, better jobs, better than girlfriends, and later…I fell asleep during the day and went to Internet cafes at night to play games, submit resumes, and interviews ~ the unit agreed to hire me, I don’t Go~Because I don’t want to work, I don’t want to meet people. I went to the interview just to reassure my family. In a blink of an eye, I was penniless at the age of 26 and had no face to ask my family for it. My best friend was out of town. Money, let me find a job just to relax. I don’t know anything, education is useless, work experience is not enough, lost confidence, social phobia, for me the most reliable and unskilled job is security… It turned out that I was back to the starting point a few years later. I cried when I was on duty in the guard room on New Year’s Eve. …The only advantage of security is that I have enough time to manage, and I have a 24-hour break for two days. Anyway, I’m already doing things that I’m interested in. So I read history, philosophy, and memorize Tang poetry and Song Ci, every day. Immersive reading (family and classmates come to my house, they think I’m pretending)… Later, I saw that an agency recruited government employees without a constitution. I wanted to try it. I saw that there is no full-time restriction. Then Anyway, I am a security guard. I have time and I love to study and I will try, and I was admitted… Aunt came as scheduled~ said, oops: Your job is a bit decent. What is the salary? Did you get married? Can you mix it up? Can be admitted as a civil servant? ……The office work is still idle, and I even wanted to find a girlfriend during the period, but every time I was about to succeed, my extreme low self-esteem made me give up. Thinking of the previous things was actually nothing, anyway, I just didn’t feel confident. After all, I have been looked down upon by my family since elementary school. Elementary school is better than studying, who is better than high school, who is better than college, who is better at work, who is better than who is better, and whose family conditions are better than who is better. I am just after their business talks. The role of verbal criticism and writing. Going to work, I think I’m not promising. Going to study or going to university thinks that my book is useless. After graduation, I think I’m not working in an agency. When I arrive at the agency, I think I’m not working in the organization. Right~ I just confuse my life. Because I really have nothing to do~ Then continue immersive reading~ With the accumulation of knowledge, it seems? like? I am improving? That kind of feeling is hard to say, but I especially wanted to make up for my regret, so I decided to go to the postgraduate entrance examination. …… Two years of preparation for the exam, regular operation for twelve hours a day, after all, I have never read high school or a formal university, and I know nothing in English (um…English one, cry out), my friend mocked me: you never took the college entrance examination. Still taking the postgraduate entrance exam? Or, how old are you? ……We failed in World War I, and the aunt sent her blessings as scheduled, but you still study? Still have to take 211? What can you do if you are admitted? Can you make money? Can you find a job? Can you find someone? Can you buy a house? Can you support your parents? Either you still go to the hotel to be a lobby manager, right? Aunt is for your own good! ……If you can’t do a battle, you will score twice. Later, half a month ago, on February 26th, the Lantern Festival. Hmm… I can’t compare my English scores with the big guys, but I really crossed the line, and there are three points more. After all, I only got 24 points in the exam last year. Well… I plan to admit 29 people this year, and I steadily landed. All the famous 211, major in Marxist philosophy. ……Past experience tells me that unless you are a high-tech professional, don’t block the road. Major is only one aspect. You can learn a lot of knowledge, you can test a lot, and what you can learn is what you can use. Yes, it doesn’t matter if you don’t use it, and art is not overwhelming. During the preparation for the exam, I met many fellows. Those younger than me or the same age as me, the eldest 41-year-old is still studying. Of course, I don’t mean to improve my academic qualifications, I hope you can understand. As for why I applied for this major, the epidemic last year showed me the strength of the motherland and the evil of capital. I am proud of the prosperity of the country! I hope to tell the Chinese story through continuous hard work, nothing more. I met someone I like and will not let go again this time. I found what I like to do and I will stick to it. I earned the first pot of gold in my life through learning. The so-called right things usually bring good results. If you want to learn, don’t ask about your future. Sorry, the following is a bit messy, because it’s almost time for dinner, so let’s do it first!