I drank alcohol last night and read everyone’s replies. I really don’t want to get so many likes with this result. I was poor when I first graduated, but being poor is temporary. Now we have debts, but with our current capabilities and resources, debts are not a problem, so we don’t need donations. Then I will try some methods and start to study Buddhist scriptures to give myself a little sustenance. Everyone you meet in life is complete in appearance, but it is not easy to understand deeply. I have followed Liao Zhi, as well as Hangzhou Lin’s father and Jiang Ge’s mother. Too many people suffer. Life is not a personal fault, everyone is struggling to survive in the cracks. I love Little Wood so much, he is an elf. But he won’t be the one who comes again, and he doesn’t want to continue this fate. I won’t come to answer, don’t want to be immersed in such emotions, sad and ridiculous, useless. Hope to be updated one day, the story has a happy ending. Then I hope that everyone will not go into it. I am anonymous because I don’t want to be known, be pitiful, and I don’t want to be a talker of life. It was almost Saturday, and my heart was filled with unspeakable pain. A lot of encouragement came today. In the past, I always immersed myself in pulling carts, and my children taught me to look up at the road. In the past, I always liked to ask why, S taught me to reconcile with myself and be kind to myself. Life is bitter, life is not, I have tasted the sweet taste. Thank you, I wish you good luck to my husband S and I are really poor and lowly husband and wife. In 2012, we fell in love. I just graduated from junior college and he is in the second year of graduate school. After being introduced by a friend, I talked about a long-distance relationship that was more than a thousand kilometers apart. S’s parents were divorced at the age of eight, and her mother had no contact with her remarriage, even if she lived in a neighboring village. After the divorce, his father was depressed and suffering from a mental illness. And my father is always drinking and domestic violence, and my mother has a weak and hesitant character. In this way, two little guys who lack love and money, sensitive, stubborn, and independent, are two little hedgehogs. S graduated from work in 2013 and finalized a formal job. I picked up my father and rented a shabby old community for one and a half years. I tried to get closer to him. S has set a formal job. I’m always afraid that the duck with his mouth will fly away. I don’t know what love is. I just want to find someone completely different from my father to give me a sense of security. I received the certificate in 2014. I don’t understand the meaning of the word husband and wife. My parents didn’t teach me the answer, nor did his parents. In fact, we have been in a different place for more than three years of love. I think getting married is a matter of two people. If we work hard together, we will have a good life. I believe that people can conquer the sky. I have always envied the self-made love. In 2014, we got the certificate and moved in together. At that time, we were too poor, not only poor, but also a father-in-law who was suffering from mental illness. He never dared to go home late or go out for dinner. When it was time for get off work, if my father-in-law did not wait for us at the door, he would fall ill and hear voices. Fantasy, the world will be crazy like asking people if I have never seen S. During the New Year, my husband will buy a piece of meat, salt it, and eat it for a long time. Fruits are only bought in stores that are rotten, because they are cheap. In the same year, we deposited 26,200 yuan, 5,200 yuan to buy three golds, and 60,000 yuan to borrow to buy a house. There are no pennies in his hand, and I don’t even eat fruit every month. Too poor, the poor even have no thoughts. They are always in the cold war and reconciliation. I complained that he didn’t understand romance, and he complained that I would not be considerate. Being poor is something that goes deep into the bones, falling into the abyss of eternal fear of having no food tomorrow, and money is like a sense of security. In 2015, the house had no money to renovate and it has been vacant. Finally I saved some salary and prepared to run the decoration on my own. I checked a lot of information and asked my colleagues. After 3 months of renovation, we have a home! ! ! On the day of the decoration, we lay on the tiles, full of accomplishments. Although no one said anything, they were all proud. When riding a bicycle back to the rental house, S rode fast, and I looked at the stars in the sky and blinked at me. I don’t have money to buy furniture, but I have the confidence to have a house, and I also have experience in saving money for decoration. Don’t worry, save your salary and call again. S meets a good opportunity and can go to the city to take a temporary job. I urge him to go, father-in-law, I watched, we are going to rush for the future, we are people with mortgages. In May 2015, my father-in-law detected advanced gallbladder cancer. We took him to Beijing for an operation. After opening the abdomen, it was found that the pancreas was overgrown with cancer cells. After the operation, I went home by myself to prepare for the wedding. My parents donated 10,000 yuan. I ordered a banquet wedding company and a sofa for the new house. I started to move from the rental room. The father-in-law came back and stayed in the new house for a day. The drainage tube was torn off and there was water in the abdomen. The elder sister took him to Beijing again, S stayed and prepared for the wedding with me. The eldest sister and her father-in-law arrived home the day before the wedding, and saw the thin cheeks collapsed, the eyes were all yellow, and the belly bulged like the father-in-law who was pregnant in June, S tears down like rain. At our wedding on August 16, no one dared to make trouble in the bridal chamber, and no one dared to stop the relatives. The wedding ended in a hurry, and the concierge paid off the hotel, guesthouse, and wedding money on the spot. On the third day of the wedding, the eldest sister hurriedly returned to Canada to continue her studies, and I went to work. S took a long vacation to take care of his father-in-law at home. Nightmare-like days, every day is spent in my father-in-law’s groaning, when he hits the wall when it hurts the most, S eats and sleeps with him. Our friend in Beijing went to Xiehe to prescribe drugs such as drolidine and morphine, and said that we would submit an application. The application was approved. On the 13th day after the wedding, my father-in-law passed away. We were cremated and buried in our hometown. During the stable period of 2016, we paid off all our debts, saved 80,000 yuan, and bought a small car. S gradually smiled, and he was transferred to a more difficult department. Always work overtime until we go home in the early morning. The year 2016 was pretty good. S’s mother came to live there, and my mother came to live here. The noisy and noisy finally entered a period of plateau. Our little wood was born on September 14, 2017. The happiest moment was when our son came to us, Virgo chick, mom and dad love you so much, you are our spiritual sustenance, and it’s complete. Mom and Dad’s childhood lacking love. September 29, 2017 S detected a space-occupying lesion in the thoracic spinal canal. I thought that S was just taking a cold while nursing me in the hospital. I had back pain. I didn’t dare to sit or turn over when I was sleeping. I misdiagnosed fasciitis in the local area and received physical therapy. My feet gradually became unconscious, unable to urinate and defecate, and lost knee reflexes. I was still in the confinement, and asked my colleague to take him for an examination. The local hospital dared not accept it and transferred it to a provincial hospital for emergency consultation. There was a space-occupying lesion in the thoracic spinal canal, and the nerve was only thinner than a layer of paper. Open thoracotomy, underwent 6 steel nails, which lasted for 30 years, and his back would be uncomfortable even if it rained on a cloudy day. 2017-2018 On the road to recovery, after the operation, the leg is still unconscious, S can no longer sit, it is soft like a puddle of mud. Leakage of cerebrospinal fluid, constipation, urinary tube infection, practice urination, urinary tract infection. Every time I escape from the dead, there should be a small wooden smiley face. To practice standing on the bed, two adult men are required to drive up. At first, it can only take five minutes from 15 degrees. I went to see S for the first time in my confinement period. He stood at 25 degrees, lying on the bed tied up and smiling at me, saying that he missed me, and I forgot whether I kissed you. I am afraid to see you like this. My sky fell, I had to stand up and make a day for S. There are three rehabilitation hospitals in a year, and each hospital cannot exceed 28 days, unless at one’s own expense. The first time I was transferred, it was the second time I saw S. On 120, he said that he wanted to see the green trees once, and I knew he wanted to sit up. I wanted to accompany him to talk, but in the ward I sat down and fell asleep. I was a little tired. I started to feed my baby every night and then went to work the next day. Actually I want to say I miss you too. All three hospitals expect him to sit up within two years, and being able to crutches is the best result. Miracles are created by people. S can walk with a walker after 10 months. The healer always persuaded him to have a hurry and he must give his body time to rest, but he was too anxious to go home and hug his son. On the day he returned home, he and my dad were like two wild men. My dad had a meal. I ate ten steamed buns. When I was discharged from the hospital, the Rehabilitation Department hired a professional company to record a video for S, saying that he wanted to serve as a model for publicity. S was very unhappy. He didn’t want to leave him so bad, but who made you so awkward. In 2019, S threw a cane and drove me and Xiao Muu to play around. We visited the Science and Technology Museum, Museum, Cultural Center, Wanda, and took a plane to Qingdao. At that time, we were so happy. Xiao Muju was educated by us to be polite and independent. He was a man. He has a bad temper, and he meets the windshield too much, and I am always so angry that he does not hit me. But when someone spoke to me a little louder, my son stepped forward and yelled back. I know my god is back, there are two men in my family! Bring a small wooden sticker couplet in 2019! In 2020, our child died of the new crown virus. Will it still carry other viruses that swept the earth? Why did my child catch a cold? We have been in the hospital for a month. After the fever has gone, we entered the PICU, and the encephalitis was carried like this My unwillingness to pass away. My world, my pride, my self-confidence has collapsed. The walking dead live every day, baby, do you know that I love you? I am so sorry for my mother, sorry for my precious little wood, two years old, five months and fifteen days. You have been to this world. Mom still has unfinished tasks, so I can’t accompany you for the time being. I won’t stop missing you until I lie in sleep. Is it the money that my poor couples are poor? When I was young, I thought it was. I thought money was a sense of security, and I never stopped. We bought a house and a car together, but we rarely felt relaxed, always carrying shackles. Always afraid of losing. Our family has two cremation certificates and two death certificates. For six years, our family only posted the couplet once. In the six years we have been a husband and wife, I have always been losing, and I have always been forced to let go. I think people will conquer the sky, and God is always telling me something is wrong in a cruel way. After every painful loss, he cursed and tortured himself crazily. Gradually, I touched some truths, and I cherished the friendship between husband and wife more and more. I am 31 years old this year and we have nothing left. I don’t know how much we will mourn in the next few decades. Even I think if he will cheat, let him go. His life is hard enough. If God gives him a little bit of sweetness, then it’s okay to leave the suffering to me. But S won’t, and neither will I. The more experience he has, the more he regards each other as his own destiny. You can have no money, how can you die. Young people are playful, young people are obsessed with love, the middle-aged people learn from fame and family, and in their twilight years, they settle for self-deception and deceive others. How much life can be, how much fine gold can be made from stubborn iron? However, different levels of exercise must have different levels of results; different levels of indulgence must accumulate different degrees of stubbornness. When I was young, I didn’t believe in the truth on paper, but now I always feel that what the old man said has some truth. Life is unpredictable and without self, it is just a practice. It is not easy to have a person with you when you are married. Even if everything is sad and all things are sad, I think two people holding hands are always more comforting than one.